The Truth of the Matter
This is probably going to be the most difficult blog to share. Believe it or not, I do like my privacy. There are constant changes in life. We are a constantly changing people. Just like the earth spins on its axis, so do we. Some changes not so pleasant and others are. I am not always as honest with people who I do not feel have my best interest in hands. I don't think they would really care about the things I am doing or want so why share each step? They may read this, or not. It is no offense to them, I simply do not think that the intimate details of my journey are enough to share with people outside of my circle. This is my disclaimer.
So, here is the new chapter. After a few set backs, miscarriages, and changes I am still trying to become a mother. I am however very much single. This is a subject I am not ready to open up about. They whys and hows are too personal and really no one's business. However, I am moving forward with the embryos I had created with my....ex. There is a lot of complicated and questionable situations here. I made a promise years ago and I keep my promises. I will never keep my children from seeing their father, but I can not make him want to be a part of my life. That is not reflective of the strong black woman my momma raised me to be. I will always love him dearly, I have chosen to step back because he didn't step up.
I also had a change in employment and I'm primarily self employed as a Loan Signing Agent. Hustle is not just a word, but something quite necessary to provide for my growing family. Thank GOD I am well versed and talented. I have not needed to worry about finances.
I am looking for a place to call home for Dink and our growing family. The housing situation in California sucks serious butt! It is so expensive, but I am looking for a home big enough to allow for my home office, running room for Dink and at least two additional bedrooms for my children.
Travel for transferring the embryos is taking an alternate route. We are in the midst of COVID19 and for our upcoming trip to NY we have decided to drive. Yes that is a LONG ass drive from California, but we are also looking at it like a mini vacay... an exciting Girls Road Trip for my 50th birthday. I will miss my little Dink, but his Granny insist her Granddog stays at home with her and PopPop. I'm blessed to have my parents!
OH Yes I'm turning 50! In a few short weeks! I'm transferring my precious embryos just days before I turn 50 too. Yes this is a NEW and wonderful chapter and I am excited and a bit timid as I'm moving forward minus a few things and people. Still I move forward because as I was once told, I am tenacious and a decisive woman.
xoxo,
Desi
So, here is the new chapter. After a few set backs, miscarriages, and changes I am still trying to become a mother. I am however very much single. This is a subject I am not ready to open up about. They whys and hows are too personal and really no one's business. However, I am moving forward with the embryos I had created with my....ex. There is a lot of complicated and questionable situations here. I made a promise years ago and I keep my promises. I will never keep my children from seeing their father, but I can not make him want to be a part of my life. That is not reflective of the strong black woman my momma raised me to be. I will always love him dearly, I have chosen to step back because he didn't step up.
I also had a change in employment and I'm primarily self employed as a Loan Signing Agent. Hustle is not just a word, but something quite necessary to provide for my growing family. Thank GOD I am well versed and talented. I have not needed to worry about finances.
I am looking for a place to call home for Dink and our growing family. The housing situation in California sucks serious butt! It is so expensive, but I am looking for a home big enough to allow for my home office, running room for Dink and at least two additional bedrooms for my children.
Travel for transferring the embryos is taking an alternate route. We are in the midst of COVID19 and for our upcoming trip to NY we have decided to drive. Yes that is a LONG ass drive from California, but we are also looking at it like a mini vacay... an exciting Girls Road Trip for my 50th birthday. I will miss my little Dink, but his Granny insist her Granddog stays at home with her and PopPop. I'm blessed to have my parents!
xoxo,
Desi
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